Monday, May 08, 2006
STRESS!!!!!
hai~ quarrel with my parents again.. this time sure not mine fault. i never even do anything wrong to fustrate them. neither did i care about them for past few weeks. just because my desktop cant work and i ask them to repair and i got scolding for that! so fucking angry! so i scolded them back and we quarrel. guess because they are stress in their work. anyway, this time i wont give in anymore. i just so fucking stress up with so many things. regarding school work is enough already.
smoking had been coming back to me again. but i'm trying to resist it. always had this intention of buying a packet of cigarettes. doing gym work and making myself so crazy helps me to reduce stress. but when i got home, things got up again. the tension is too strong. sometimes i just want to get home late at night. so that when i reached home i can sleep. dont have to see their fucking faces.
everything changed! even i changed! i cant describe myself now. guess just the word stupid suits me best. i'm like a dumb-ass. i'm as a person with so much goals waiting for me to achieve and so much dreams waiting for me to fufil. yet, just because of a incident which i dont wish to say out cause it's already over make me change to the worst! bad dreams affected my sleep making me so worry when i got up. it just cant get off my head. guess have to find solution to it.
i'll end here, take care guys! god bless u!
smoking had been coming back to me again. but i'm trying to resist it. always had this intention of buying a packet of cigarettes. doing gym work and making myself so crazy helps me to reduce stress. but when i got home, things got up again. the tension is too strong. sometimes i just want to get home late at night. so that when i reached home i can sleep. dont have to see their fucking faces.
everything changed! even i changed! i cant describe myself now. guess just the word stupid suits me best. i'm like a dumb-ass. i'm as a person with so much goals waiting for me to achieve and so much dreams waiting for me to fufil. yet, just because of a incident which i dont wish to say out cause it's already over make me change to the worst! bad dreams affected my sleep making me so worry when i got up. it just cant get off my head. guess have to find solution to it.
i'll end here, take care guys! god bless u!